DENISEdiary*

4 SEPTEMBER 09

went for army open house after school.
kinda like learning journey. was really excited about it.
but end up like people arnd me quite sian.
so i wasn that excited when i reach there after all.
but anyway, i went for 4one after that.
its a worship experience at ADAM.
its totally awesome! great to see the whole youth ministry coming together to worship.
after that, i went to have prata for supper with shiny, caroline and esther.
we ordered so much!
choc banana, cheese, cheese sausage, kaya, 2 plain prata, fried chic, murtabak.
but their prata is soo big, so i couldn even finish my 2nd prata.
after supper, the rest went to esther’s place for sleepover.
kinda disappointed i couldn go.
but i believe there is always next time :]

5 SEPTEMBER 09

slept at 2am this morning and woke up at 6am.
had POC rehearsal today.
plus initial plan was to celeb weishen’s bday at 7am today.
but turn out to be a total surprise.
they celebrated mine without me knowing.
but like duhh right, thats why its a surprise. LOL!
it was a super pinkish surprise.
they even got me a pink FBT. LOL.
but yea THANKS SO MUCH GUYS.
LOVE YOU ALL!
after which, a long day of rehearsal.
hope everything goes well on 12! :]

6SEPTEMBER09

went to church today. after that had section outing.
it was awesome! hahha. saw the youths having fun!
and after that, the leaders brought me out for dinner and movie.
advance birthday celebration for me. hahha.
it was really a great time of fellowship and chatting!
thanks leaders! :] LOVE YOU TOO!

ohmans, woke up this morning and it was raining.
i love rainy days only when i get to take a good nap.
cos the rainy feeling makes you so sleepy and drowsy.
but of all days, why rain today ]:
i have not completed my work,
and now I FEEL SO SLEEPY!
all the rains fault. LOL.
plus i slept for 12 hrs.
by right should be more awake.
but the more you sleep, the more tired you are.
weird right. and i have piles of work to complete!

PW, math tutorial, physics assignment, revise for chem test tmr, and study for chinese!
i cant believe my teacher is giving us tingxie (chinese spelling) LOL.
and knowing that my chinese is soo bad,
i definitely have to study. or else i’ll just get a zero.
ohmans, i better start doing work and pray that i dun fall asleep halfway!

today was real good.
i mean compared to other days, today’s awesome!

had teachers’ day celebration today in the audi.
it was terribly spectacular.
hahha, the nobody song kept repeating.
but it was all in different way of performance, super cool.
i enjoyed the first item the most.
the 5 dancers were really good.
and 2 of them actually MOONWALKED!
hahha, cool ehs? all in all, its AWESOME!
great job guys. you got the whole audi hyped:]

actually i was supposed to have econs class after that.
sad right. like have lessons after celebration?
but it was cancelled in the end, YAY to that :]
so i manage to return back to mpss with the twins.
although couldn make it in time for the concert.
at least we caught the teachers and some of our besties:]

left school at 130, i met up with CS to have lunch and study.
and guess what, on the way to kallang macs from cityhall,
i fell off the stairs! gaa. super malu.
not seriously injured, but sooo embarrassing.
i seriously didn kno where to look then. LOL.
come to think of it, it has been long since i last fall! HAHHA~

Today, i cried in school for the first time.
it was after a quarrel with my mom over the phone.
it is due to some family trip at the end of the year.
as in, i know my tone wasnt right,
which partly cause her to kinda flare up and get angry.
but there is just so much within me that i needed to let go.
probably crying today was a good let out of my feelings.
didn kno how to face my mom,
i decided to stay for night study in school,
so that i would return home later.

when i got home, 2 of us only spoke 2 words.
i really felt very bad and guilty and i wanted to apologise.
but i didn know how to.
just half an hour ago, my dad came to talk to me about the dates to korea again.
i knew that he was conveying the message on behalf of my mom.
after which, he told me about what my mom was going thru.
the amount of stress she is facing in the office,
due to her company having to be taken over tmr.
plus, the maid is also giving her so much problems.
and yet, i still add on to her stress.
i so ought to be shot.

sorry mom, sorry.

Was really happy like a min ago,
like everything just seemed right today.
but now, my mood is totally crashed.
i was just looking into a fb profile.
and i saw something i really hope i didn know.
as in, at the beginning, i already felt very out of place among the 3 of them.
trying very hard to make myself better,
i fit in like only for that 1 shopping we had together at orchard.
but after that, i felt soo far again.
just yesterday, they went to give a surprise for a friend of mine.
as lessons end at 6, i had no choice but not to join them.
they wanted to surprise her at 4.
and of course, it was the 3 of them again.
even the dinner that night.
and when i saw that post she wrote on her own wall,
i simply cried. i would never be part of it.
even when they were planning, i was told that there was something like this,
and not brought to my notice for discussion.
i think its just me, drifting further..
ohmans, i sound sooo emo.
shall stop and go to bed. ]:

2 days ago, school ended at 6pm.
as i was suppose to have a meeting at church at 8,
i decided to have dinner with a classmate of mine, malar.
so we went to tampines mall to have macs for dinner.
*so unhealthy i kno. hahha:]
but yea the point was that we saw a guy standing beside a table.
and actually i wanted to sit on that table.
but he was standing there,
so thought he was reserving the table or something,
so i walked to the table opposite.
but the point was he kept staring at me from the point i stepped into macs.
i thought he was like angry with me or something.
like ” i have already reserve this seat, why still eyeing on my table?!” kind of angry..
so i didn really bother and went to get my food.
he was gone when i was back,
so i thought, iya the weird guy is gone, can eat in peace.

but little will i kno i saw him at the mrt when we were at tampines.
i walked towards the centre of the waiting area.
and when we got into the train,
i suddenly saw him walking from the front of the train to the cabin which me and malar is sitting.
and he happily sat opposite me when there are so many other available seats around!
i thought i was being paranoid myself.
so i told malar what i was paranoid about.
and malar observed that the whole time, he was looking towards our direction.
its freaky.. even malar was paranoid after that.
when there was a man standing in between us,
he tried tilting his head. i mean who does that?

so we were just talking about how to get him away throughout the whole journey back to paya lebar.
but THANK GOD, he didn get down at the same stop.

today had been kinda weird for me.
oh yes, cos today is wednesday,
so school starts at 845 instead of 745.
i woke up at 7am today and recieve a msg from my dad that he will be back at 810 to fetch me as its raining.
having too much time, i cut my own fringe.
hahha now it look so funny!
anyway thats not the point.
the point is, he came at 825.
and i was late in the end.
FIRST TIME IN 17YEARS! im late for school.
LOL, but there were so many others late as well.

after that when we were queueing to scan our card,
my friend told me i didn zip my bag.
i was kinda stunned cos i remember zipping it in the car.
but nevermind, he zipped it for me.
then when i was on my way back home,
i alighted at kallang and realised i didn zip my bag!
i mean i saw the reflection la.
and i actually opened my bag at tampines.
so meaning i had it unzipped for such a long journey!
paiseh leh. today never zip up twice.
dunno whats wrong with me.

hahah but school ended at 2pm today.
and i went to run with angel and nuanting.
train for 2.4. cos i really cmi now.
need to get below 15!
when i got home, i walked up the stairs.
also one form of training ma! hahha:)
i dunno how many flights is that.
i stay on the 23rd storey.
so is that 23 flights or 46 flights? LOL.

ohmans, today kinda screwed up the oral.
as in maybe i was too nervous being the first one la.
i was practically stuttering through the whole reading of passage.
cos my reading really cmi la.
then when it came to conversation,
i kinda prepared myself.
but it turn out to be some topic that i srsly dont understand!
its some PAE thing, the 3 months enrollment into jc.
i mean in english i know la.
in chinese, HAHA, abit difficult.
i stunned, so all my words are like super simple words.
like primary school.
and i happily just said MOE in english.
cos i forgot what is it in chinese!
mans, pray that i can get a merit at least! :]

ohmygoodness, i almost lost my omnia yesterday!
i was out with my buzz group, on the way to kallang leisure park.
so we all agreed to meet up at 12noon, kallang mrt.
as i was in a rush, i took a cab from home out to the  mrt.
and i didn know that when i step out of the cab,
my phone dropped! and i just carried on walking.
until i reach kallang mrt, i couldn find my phone in my bag.
mans, that time my heart almost stop beating la..
my youths helped me by calling my phone continuously.
LUCKILY! a guy picked up and say he found it.
THANK GOD! and he said he is nearby, so he will wait for me there to pass it to me.
when i got my phone back, the man said,
“luckily i took, just now a guy from the cab almost took it.”
hahha so i kept thanking him.. PHEW! that was a close one.
thank god that he protected my phone!
now its back to her owner:)